Looking For The Light
By: Pamela Leavey On: March 28, 2009 at 1:19 pm
The past few weeks have been interesting… When I started my journey last fall, to move cross country from Los Angeles to Maine, I considered it to be my “mid-life crisis adventure.” I knew I needed a change and it was important to me to be living back on the East Coast where my roots are and to live near family.
Perhaps it is the long hard first winter here, but I think not, there are days when I wonder where the light is at the end of the tunnel. Spring is here, warmer days, longer days, but the sun is not the cure all, for I feel often still that I have not found that missing piece (or peace) I seek.
I’ve been sorting through what I want to do next with my life, like many who have been affected by the economic downturn we are in, I am looking to re-invent myself. Come what may… For now I continue to keep looking…
Sphere: Related Content
Related posts:
Comments
9 Responses to “Looking For The Light”Leave a comment, and if you'd like your own picture to show up next to your comments, go get a gravatar!
Pamela, thanks I will let you know. It is lovely to have found several bloggers from the Eastport/Lubec area.
We had some lovely weather here this week but it has now turned dark, cold, rainy, and windy. I don’t mind that weather but there is a dark spirit here that makes sunny days dismal. Eastport seems too good to be true. Hope it isn’t .
Be patient with finding that new bit of yourself. Remember that you introduced a lot of changes all at once followed by drastically different winter than is typical for you. I suspect that as spring turns to summer and you are out and about with more people and that lovely sea air something that is simmering in the back of your mind will begin to push into your conscious thought and voila!
O.
I second Oneida. I think you made a <LOT> of changes, and those changes are now coming home to roost. You may have a bit “cabin fever” as they call it. With all the negative news, it is hard to be very positive. I stopped watching the news because there is nothing I can do about what is going on, so why bother. I will do what I can do, and that is it. Whatever happens I will make do. After my near death experience, (level 3 coma) I look at things differently. Things I once thought were important are not. I have been to the other side, and nothing really matters here except doing what you need to do. If you feel like re-inventing yourself, have at it. The fact that you are seeking peace, shows that you are on the right track. So many people lack peace, and aren’t even aware that it exists.
Onedia and Danny
Thank you both for the encouragement. It was a definitely a hard winter for me after 19 years in L.A.. I’ve had a lot on my plate for a long time and then I added a lot of change to the mix. I’m starting to get my sea legs back however… little by little.
Pamela…my thoughts on peace…
I find peace in solitude, when I am alone… in music, mine is Celtic…in nature listening to the birds singing and feeding at the bird feeders in my backyard and working in the soil, planting flowers, gardening…in water, lakes, seashore.
Personally for me, peace is not found by ones own efforts but from a Christian standpoint, the peace that passes all understanding is a gift…freely given not earned, an unmerited blessing given to believers in Christ who are in a state of grace. Peace Be With You…Janice
Your writing is excellent. Maybe you are doing what you should be doing and maybe it would help to pull it together in a focused project. It is important to take care of yourself physically when times are hard–exercising, eating well etc. Dealing with angst and challenges when you are physically well is much better than the alternative. 30-40 minutes of exercise (or something like that) a day is something that you can control when the rest of the world is floundering
Janice
Yes, I have been big into the solitude the past couple of years or so and it was one of the reasons I chose to move here. Music and nature are both wonderful catalysts for experiencing the divine. Thank you.
Joe
Once I get a few things off my plate, I have plans to put my focus into a writing project. I lost touch with my other writing doing the political writing, so this blog and BohemianWomen are my keys to getting that aspect of myself back.
And of course now that the weather is breaking I am back to walking and doing some yoga. There were times during the winter I would have loved to get on the floor and stretch, but it was just too darn cold!
Pamela…you are doing a wonderful job with your writing and as an introspective soul searching…the winter season is the time for reflection and taking stock of our lives. Your epiphany will show itself when winter turns to spring like the seasons of our lives.
Janice
Thanks so much. I really was suffering from a serious case of writers block for quite a while but it does seem that the block may be lifting. It really helps having some feedback!