Reflections: Passing Storms

Uncertainty had plagued my for a while on a few different levels and yesterday was the day to cast that aside. I had made a rash decision based on financial concern, and the decision made the situation worse on a few levels. It was time to put the stress the situation caused behind me.

I drove to the Parker River National Wildlife Refuge knowing that off in the distance there was a storm moving in. I wasn’t sure when I entered the Refuge if I would drive to Sandy Point, at the southern tip of the Refuge, or turn back and head home when I reached Hellcat Swamp, where the road turns to dirt. I drove on…

Sandy Point, Plum Island, Massachusetts ~ c. Pamela J. Leavey 2014

Sandy Point, Plum Island, Massachusetts ~ c. Pamela J. Leavey 2014

As the clouds moved closer and the sky darkened, cars were leaving the beach and the Refuge in attempt to beat the storm. I knew instinctively, watching the skies as I drove, that the storm would for the most part, pass north of Sandy Point.

I walked the beach keeping my eyes on the dark clouds, as they moved west to east. I felt a certain sense of safety there, heedless of the swiftly moving storm. I had come there for a reason, to let the storms that had been brewing my heart and mind pass through me with the storm moving across the sky.

Sitting on the beach I felt relieved of the negative energy that had prevailed over my usual positive mindset for a while. The dark skies were moving quickly and far off in the distance to the west, I could see the clear skies following. Sit out the storm, I told myself. It will pass.

I could hear the thunder booming and crashing, and see the occasional flash off lightening light up the dark skies to the north of where I sat on the beach. I felt alive and giddy with energy generated by the storm.

Life brings storms to our door. Some we create on our own, some are nature’s doing. No matter where those storms originate that always pass. In those times of storms in our life, sometimes we must face them head on in order to release them.

As I sat on the beach, I knew I was there to face the brewing storm head on. The release I experienced as I watched the storm roll in was tantamount to giving all things troubling in my heart and soul over to the universe. Trust and let go.

As the wind picked up and the rain began to fall softly at first, I felt cleansed and renewed in the tears of the Great Mother Goddess. My grief moved through me and shifted to happiness and joy.

Sometimes you just need to sit and let the storms in life pass by…

Reflections: Water

Reflection at Maudslay ~ c. Pamela J. Leavey 2014

Reflection at Maudslay ~ c. Pamela J. Leavey 2014

There is a certain sense of inner peace that radiates from a still, reflective body of water and fills the soul with a stillness much like that of meditation. In the reflection one sees the wonders of nature mirrored back at itself, sans the ego of the human looking into the mirror. Water is among the most sacred of elements to the Great Mother Goddess, for water sustains all living things.

Sam Keen notes in Hymns to an Unknown God, “In Taoism, the way of water is the metaphor for wisdom.” Indeed, in water I see all that was, all that is and all that can be, and I am renewed by its cool existence and constant motion, that fills my soul with hope and happiness. To imagine the world without water, is to imagine a barren soul devoid of life.

In The Stillness

Solo Swan on the River ~ c. Pamela J. Leavey 2013

Solo Swan on the River ~ c. Pamela J. Leavey 2013

In the stillness
I hear the beating
Of the mother’s heart,
In the stillness
I know the pain
Of her longing.
I watch I wait
For her children
To appear,
I know her longing
For it is my own.
I cry out to the Mother
Where would that I could go,
For I have wandered lonely
In the light of the sun.
She tells me in whisper
Daughter I do not know,
Your path is written in the stars
Though on the river you do flow.
Sit peacefully in the still
The answers you will know.

© Pamela J. Leavey 2013

Daily Affirmations

Today I reflect on the wonders of nature and I thank the Great Mother Goddess for the life force of all creatures great and small. I revel in every moment I spend in communion with nature. ~ Pamela J. Leavey

Mallard Ducks at Parker River National Wildlife Refuge

Photo: Mallard Ducks at Parker River National Wildlife Refuge ~ c. Pamela J. Leavey

Daily Affirmations: Spring

As I watch this Spring explode with fresh life, from new leaves on the trees and flowers, to baby bunnies and wrens, I am grateful for all the gifts of Mother Nature. Today, I thank the Great Mother Goddess for all her blessings and abundance… ~ Pamela J. Leavey

(Photo: Baby Bunny in the Garden On The River ~ c. Pamela J. Leavey 2012)

Reflections: Progress

After 11 weeks in some sort of a cast on my right foot, I am finally free. Free!

What a relief… But now the work begins. I got the okay to not sue my air cast any longer on Monday and yesterday I jumped right into PT. I’m done with laying and sitting around and ready to be outdoors walking and enjoying Mother Nature.

Right before I fell, I had been walking 3 – 4 days a week, mostly on the trails at Parker River National Wildlife Refuge, and I am itching to get back on those trails.

Years ago I walked 4 – 5 days week, when my daughter was young and it was so healing for me: body, mind and soul. I was just starting to feel the endorphins kick in after about 3 – 4 weeks of walking when I fell.

My physical therapist asked what my goals were yesterday and I told her walking. As we talked more, I explained to her that I have a dream in the back of my mind that I would like to see come to fruition in the next couple of years and that is to walk The Camino.

I explained that I had recently watched The Way, and it renewed my desire to make the trek:

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One day at a time for now… slowly, steadily building up strength, flexibility, balance and agility. Walking The Camino is no walk in the park, it is in fact a pilgrimage or spiritual adventure, depending on your religious views or lack there of.

I can honestly say now that I am starting to build up my strength again, the past 11 weeks were truly a very difficult time in my life. I am grateful to have had a really good orthopedic doctor who immediately recognized my injury as a Lisfranc sprain. it’s a complicated injury, that will takes weeks of PT to finish my recovery.

And then… Well, there’s trails at Parker River, Maudslay and elsewhere where I can make a type of daily pilgrimage to feed my body, mind and soul with the healing, loving nature of the Mother.

And so… the Mid-Life Crisis Adventure continues…

(Photo: Hellcat Swamp Trail ~ c. Pamela J. Leavey 2012)